kicik tahi…
‘Kecik hati’ is a Malay proverb that means a kind of feeling as the person felt
not being threat correctly (I might say) by somebody (especially the one that
close to them). If we directly translating the ‘kecik hati’ into English, it
will be: small liver (scientifically) or small heart (literally)! kah3, this
bring me to the memory when it was minutes away before the SPM English examination
started, my friend make fun using an malay idiom, directly translated into English.
(sepandai2 tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua: clever-clever squirrel jump,
finally fell to the ground). It is not totally an idiom, but an idiot!(he5). Ok,
back to ‘kecik hati’ problem, I just want to tell you a story about my experience
facing this kecik hati problem. Erk, actually, my ‘friend’ problem. It begun when
my ‘friend’, a totally (miserable) + (unstable with his emotion) + (other
unscientifically proven problems) needs to go to his last IRP meeting. It just
the day where he felt quite ‘no mood’ to go to the meeting, but at the same
time, he want to come. But he decide not to come, hoping that his mood for that
day will improved (then he can study peacefully). He knows that his friends
(his IRP mates) will get ‘kecik hati’ to him, but it just that no body haven’t
understand who he is actually (as he told nobody about himself). And he totally
hates the school that he just wants to forget his past there (that’s another reason
he don’t want to meet people that close to him aka his classmates). And the feed
back just received was just as expected. It happened when one of his IRP mate
ask him ‘what type of sickness you got when our last IRP meetings?’. He replied,
‘erk, can’t tell anybody, secret~). Another IRP mate then give a quit unfavorable
answer ‘eleh, nak study sendiri la tuu’… my ‘friend’ just can’t blame his
friend (the one that give that unfavorable answer) as he doesn’t provide a good
answer for his IRP leader’s question…but still, my ‘friend’ do felt ‘kecik hati’
also la because of that. Hurm, just to take the point from this story, never
felt kecik hati although people talk bad things to us. Just be yourself. Sometimes
things can’t be explain as it is not physically shown. Just stand firm to your
ground and life to the max! pray to got so He can show the right path you should
follow..amin…
